Last month of ONE

Miriam is 23 months old today. We only have one month left of her as a one year old. I'm kind of sad, but also having fun with growing-up-Miriam. Paul definitely is enjoying her growing up. He is too cute the way he brings little things home for her that he knows she'll like. He used to do that for me :)

We actually didn't have the best day. Miriam was ROUGH this morning getting dressed for MOMS and the nursery. She wasn't helpful at all and I lost my cool more than once. I had a great meeting, but when I went to pick her up in the nursery, she was in Time Out. The Friday nursery lady (who has never had anything nice to say about my child, but that's a WHOLE different kind of blog) went through the list of Miriam's wrong-doing's for the day. I made Miriam say she was sorry and we went to the car. I teared up as I was putting her in her car seat, asking her, "Why did you push? Why did you throw your lunch on the floor?" She could see I was upset and said, "No sad, Mommy. Happy now, Kay?" I wouldn't let her listen to any princess songs or Lionel Ritchie. I was just sad that she had misbehaved AND it's all my friends kids that were in that class...so I know she pushed a child I really like, I just don't know which one.

Anyway, I had my sad time, my questioning whether or not I'm doing a good job being her mom, whether I need to go back to work and let a daycare worker raise her, whether I need to be tougher (I don't know how I could be) or more calm (THAT I could work on). It wasn't the best day.

But, we went to Edgar's anyway and she picked out a cupcake for her 23rd month practice party. She slept like an angel and when she woke up we played play-doh and her behavior was excellent.

Paul came home and we 'celebrated'. We sang "Happy Birthday" and watched as she shoveled that cupcake in her mouth with so much joy. She was singing "Happy Birthday" to herself, to the cupcake, to her lovey. It really was precious to watch. We talked about her party. She named everyone she wanted to come and THAT was funny. She is determined that Rocky will be there, JoeJoe and Bebe's dog. We talked about what she wanted to do at her party and what kind of dress she wanted to wear. She is ready, ready for her birthday party.

I love my girl and I'm so thankful that I've had her in my life for 23 months. She has brought so much joy and love to me. She's made us a family. I hate that she is misbehaving in school, but she's not perfect. She's just a sweet, sweet girl that had a tough day.